Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Crisis of Confidence
It comes in waves, this emotional business, and today I'm just feeling like the CADDi climb may beat me. It's partly in contrast to doing artwork, which comes easily, and to the large illustration job bid I'm waiting to hear about, for which income would come easily.
Nothing about the CADDi, other than coming up with the idea in the first place, has been easy. I KNOW I'm making progress and that I just need to keep plugging, but since I can't see more than a step ahead it feels sometimes like the climb is eternal.
I met with a woman yesterday who advises people like me. She's had several start-ups...one so successful that she could not keep up and had to fold, another is at about the same point as the CADDI. She told me that my four years with this is a very short time for launching a new product. It was so nice to hear! I'm starting to hear people talk about using the CADDi, or having the AHA moment when they wish they'd had one, which is even better. I'm selling some and have had some inquiries from people interested in selling them for me. I should feel great, but today I just feel tired.
This is a blog about the entrepreneurial experience and how I'm feeling is a part of the roller coaster ride. I want to be honest, so sharing the ups goes with sharing the downs.
I just realized it's 3:30 which is the lowest point of any day for me, and I'm fighting allergies this week...could be that simple.
Maybe I'm halfway up the vine and the golden egg has a smiley face on it.